Quarter Life Crisis

24 Aug

The past few night I’ve had vivid dreams about going back to school and about being in class. I attribute this to separation anxiety. Ask any student in school currently how they would feel if they didn’t have to go to class or take another test and their response would probably be one of sheer joy. Apparently for me, it was misplaced joy. As everyone embarks on their first day of school I’m sitting on my couch pining for the days when all I had to worry about was what classes I needed to take to fulfill which requirement.

I’m not sure when it happened, maybe it was happening all along but school became my life. School was my purpose, well, graduation was my purpose. In May I fulfilled that purpose and landed myself in a world of confusion and lack of direction. This is not where I imagined myself being after four years of college, but then again I didn’t really have a clear vision of where I actually was heading after college.

Enter theΒ  Quarter Life crisis.

I’m only 22, I feel like I’m too young to be having a crisis of any sort. This is the time of our lives that we’re free to discover ourselves and explore the world around us.Β  I’m anxious to get started on doing both of those things but instead I’m back living at my mother’s house, in the town I was born and raised in, exploring and discovering nothing. I know that these things are only temporary, the packed boxes in my garage are a tribute to this knowledge, but I am an impatient woman. I want to get out there and live my life. I want to be amazing, not mediocre. Not minimum wage with a bachelor’s.

I want to change the world and make a difference and I want to get started yesterday.

2 Responses to “Quarter Life Crisis”

  1. April BFF4L August 24, 2009 at 6:53 pm #

    Everything is going to be okay…promise πŸ™‚
    I wish you were here to go to school for me!
    Maybe go back for your masters?
    The perfect job will come to you soon…wow I just sounded like a fortune cookie πŸ˜‰
    and a major bonus is you will be in Vegas SOON to visit all of us and while we are worrying about finishing up our homework so we can go out with you, you will be looking like the hot mama you are and partying all the time πŸ™‚

    Miss you xoxo

    • amyfromthehoco August 24, 2009 at 7:28 pm #

      Thanks BFF4L! I’m so excited to get back to Vegas and get down with you πŸ˜‰


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